Last night, after 4 days of trying to figure out when the “perfect” time to call, T called me, and we got to talk! It was awkward and slightly uncomfortable, but not in a bad way. Actually, it reminded me somewhat of the conversations I used to have with my Dad when we were first reconnecting. But different, of course.
I told him all about the housing stuff, and all about my day. Finally talking to him, I actually just sort of talked and talked. I felt silly afterward, like maybe I talked too much. It was nice though, and I told him that it pretty much works like this: if you aren’t in my regular calling rotation, I stress out about calling at the “right” time. If I call you regularly, it becomes a habit, and then I do it all the time, without stress. (That goes for everyone, I either call regularly, or I don’t.)
Afterward, when D finally gave in to sleep, I talked to my mom and N. Due to a silly conversation between N and I, I ended up “introducing” my mom to the Real Doll. HAHAHAHAHA. (Sidenote: If you are reading this, and haven’t seen Lars and the Real Girl, I highly recommend it.)
The girls leave in a few days, and I am honestly going to miss them. I don’t spend as much time with Kimmie, but Mel is around more often, and the house will be unusually quiet without them. It will give me plenty of time to focus on the wedding, which…for the record, is IN 23 DAYS!! Wait, today is the 1st….22DAYS!!! Holy Hell.
I have SO much to do. Crazy amounts of stuff.
Lists, and crazyness.
Crap, I’m off to organize something. Back in a bit.
Thinking of you!!
Calling you tomorrow!
I was a wreck today and didnt want to bring that mess to the table!
Tomorrow is a new day!
Love ya…and am proud of you for all that you are.
You = amazing.